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Mar. 17th, 2001 08:05 pmStill unproductive.
I did sit in front of the screen and/or my books/stacks of photocopies forever. I read, and read again, got up to get something to eat, read more, caught myself surfing the net/playing freecell/staring blankly at the wall in front of me, read some more, etc. Repeat ad lib.
If only I did admit that I won't get anything done, I could at least do something really fun. But that would make me feel guilty and lazy. Only that I'm not less lazy like this, although I try hard to get something done... I seem to be stuck with my paper. I do know a lot about my subject and I can annoy the hell out of the people around me because I can go on about it forever. Only that I seem incapable of finally writing it down and get it all over with.
I hate the thought of how much time I'm wasting away this way. I could be done already. I just can't get myself back into the flow and I don't know why. It's infinitely frustrating. Maybe I want too much? I know people who hardly know what they're talking about but write it all in a couple of days and move on to the fun things in life. I always think I know too little and it takes me forever to finally get finished. I know a lot afterwards, much more than the paper itself would have required, and wonder if I couldn't have made it easier for myself.
And right now I can't even say I'm learning a lot because I simply can't concentrate on anything. And I cant' seem to find a way to kick myself in the butt and make myself understand that I really need to move on to the next one.
If anyone could kindly reveal the secret of self-motivation and self-discipline to me, I'd be infinitely grateful.
Please?
I did sit in front of the screen and/or my books/stacks of photocopies forever. I read, and read again, got up to get something to eat, read more, caught myself surfing the net/playing freecell/staring blankly at the wall in front of me, read some more, etc. Repeat ad lib.
If only I did admit that I won't get anything done, I could at least do something really fun. But that would make me feel guilty and lazy. Only that I'm not less lazy like this, although I try hard to get something done... I seem to be stuck with my paper. I do know a lot about my subject and I can annoy the hell out of the people around me because I can go on about it forever. Only that I seem incapable of finally writing it down and get it all over with.
I hate the thought of how much time I'm wasting away this way. I could be done already. I just can't get myself back into the flow and I don't know why. It's infinitely frustrating. Maybe I want too much? I know people who hardly know what they're talking about but write it all in a couple of days and move on to the fun things in life. I always think I know too little and it takes me forever to finally get finished. I know a lot afterwards, much more than the paper itself would have required, and wonder if I couldn't have made it easier for myself.
And right now I can't even say I'm learning a lot because I simply can't concentrate on anything. And I cant' seem to find a way to kick myself in the butt and make myself understand that I really need to move on to the next one.
If anyone could kindly reveal the secret of self-motivation and self-discipline to me, I'd be infinitely grateful.
Please?
